Thursday, September 28, 2006


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My sister Hannah is 17 now. Her birthday was yesterday. Got me thinking a lot about when I was 17 and thinking a lot about my sisters. My senior year of high school was the best. I had so much fun. I was editor of the yearbook and newspaper, and captain of the flag team. I worked so hard and I was so excited to go to college. My sister plays tennis and I wish I lived closer so I could go cheer for her every match.

My other sister Amber is 21 now. She is getting married next summer and is already working on picking out dresses. Her colors are pink and light blue and its going to be a huge ceremony. She is having like 7 or 8 bridesmaids and groomsmen. I know she has a ton of friends and family that she wants in there, but geez. She is going to look for bridesmaid dresses with her friends this weekend and I wish I lived closer so I could go too. Being 6 hours away from my sisters sucks. But the crappy thing is, my sisters all live close to each other and they dont want to spend any time together, they are all too busy with their own lives to make time for each other. Amber wants Hannah and Richelle to go pick out dresses that they like and then she will make her friends get the same ones, but since H & R would rather be with their friends, then Amber's friends are going to pick out the dresses and H & R have to accept what they choose. I think I am the only sister all three of them are close to. They arent close with each other which I think sucks. I wish they could have each other to talk to or hang out with. I know that after they get out of school and move on with their lives, they wont have their friends around all the time, but their sisters will always know whats going on and always be there. They need to build those relationships and not grow so far apart.

Ah enough of my whining about them. They are just growing up so fast and I want to be there more for them. I am always a phone call away though and they all know that.

Friday, September 15, 2006


Here's 4 generations.
Aren't my grandparents cute? :-)
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How long does it take your body to get back to normal after being radioactive? Well I waited 2 hours to ask my endocrinologist and he couldn't answer my question yesterday. I just want to know when I will stop feeling so tired and brainless. He said it takes some time and we still have to figure out if my synthroid dosage is right. So I gave him some blood to test and left with an appointment to come back in a month and probably get no answers again.

So I hear that it is Thyroid Cancer Awareness month. Everyone get your NECK CHECKED at your next doctor appointment. Its not hard, just look up and swallow.

I barely have the energy to get my house situated the way I want it. There are still boxes sitting around that need to be unpacked. I am a newb when it comes to hanging pictures on the wall. I have a ton of adorable pictures that are framed and need to be hung, but I am really terrible about lining things up on the wall in a presentable fashion. Its strange that I can arrange pictures and embellishments on a page in an album but not on a wall. I am obsessive compulsive about how straight they are but I can't bring myself to put 10 holes in a wall to get it right. Vicious circle.

I am dying to get back to scrapbooking. But I can't get the energy to get things together to do it and I can't get Batman to be motivated to do it for me. I need to get the cabinet moved to the basement and the two big boxes of stuff. Then I need to go buy a table and chair to use down there. I can't wait to have my own scrap area though.
I got a haircut yesterday. I wanted to keep some length but have a more youthful style so I got shoulderlength layers now. Next we will try some color. But this morning I wondered if it looks like the same cut my mom has. Maybe this unhappiness with things in life right now has something to do with my thyroid hormone levels. Yesterday I loved my hair and now I think it looks like my moms. I need more shopping therapy. *_*
Sweet Batman bought me another powercat necklace off ebay. It was a sweet gesture, but it seems we got ripped off by the seller because the charm is only 1/2 an inch which is an inch smaller than my last one. So its not what he thought he paid for and definitely not worth what was paid. Its more like a child's necklace, so if the seller doesnt take it back and refund us then I may just use it as a bracelet charm. Thank you for the gesture though honey.

Well I have dishes to finish and Superman needs a bottle and some entertainment.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Back in the swing of things

Well, I had my radiation therapy. Still no info on what all got accomplished there. I talk to the endocrinologist next week and I will see what all he saw on the scans they took.
Being in the hospital for 48 hours was completely boring and I think I barely escaped depression setting in. I was thrilled to get to talk to the Genderist who called often to check on me. It was so nice to hear her cute southern accent and to connect with someone who knows how radiation feels.
I missed my babies so terribly. Not being able to hold or see my Superman and Spiderman was so hard. I cried every night just wishing they didnt have to go thru this with me. I did wean Superman completely to formula. Well my family did it for me. He stayed with his grandmas while things were going on. My stepmom and my mom and my mother-in-law took great care of him and he just kept growing even while I wasnt there.

Spiderman is not adjusting well to all the change. He acts out and does normal 3 year old things and everyone seems to think he has a discipline problem. He is a smart kid and he knows his right from wrong and I know it will just take time. I never expected him to be perfect and I dont see why everyone else does. I know he loves his baby brother, he just needs a period of adjustment like everyone else. This is like the first big thing to happen to him and I'm not surprised that he is a bit put off by it.

Add to all that, we are now living in our new duplex. Spiderman has a full basement now to house all his toys and his imagination. Our bedroom is big enough to keep the crib in for a few months. The boys will share a room in a few months. There is also a big yard to play and run around in. We are just glad that there is more room for us, less rent to pay, and its closer to work for Anthony. I didn't find my powercat necklace yet. I don't know where else to look. If I were a silver powercat, where would I be?

We went back to kansas to pick up the boys over the long weekend. It was good to get to see everyone again. To make things better I got a fever blister to signal the beginning of a big cold. As if bringing home two kids to an unpacked house after a 6 hour car ride wasn't fun enough. Being sick makes me want to cut off my head. I am slowly getting boxes unpacked and things put in their rightful places so I relax a little more and release a little stress with each empty box. I am just soothed knowing that my kids are here with me again and we can all get back in our own swing.
Now that our internet is back up (no thanks to the cable company), I will hopefully get a chance to catch up on all my internet doings and get all those personal emails answered and all my reading caught up on and you may even see a post or two from me. That is if I can fit all that in between slowly unpacking, diapering, potty training, sleeping, playing WoW with Batman, scrapbooking, and coughing up lungs. Aren't you glad we're back? I'll try to share some new pics so you can see how we are all changing and get a post or two in here about something upbeat and not focused on mommy stuff or cancer stuff. Peace and love! Posted by Picasa